It's cold and dark out as I find myself standing on the rough gravel on the side of the road. Not much of a road even, but a sharp left turn that everyone speeds on in order to "almost" lose control and come crashing down to the rocks below. And there I stand, right on the edge. Not to jump, not to scream, but to just get noticed. There is something dripping down my face and I realize that my hair is wet. At least my makeup won't smudge, because I'm not wearing any. Why I'm here I do not know. The only thing obvious in view is a flashing light in the distance, so far that it lays on the same level as the cliff from an eye's view. The light is bright and not discreet at all. What it wants from me I also don't know, but feel like I should follow to it. Reason being is that my own bright light burned out a while ago and there's nothing left of it but the cold, mere, darkness. The light looks comforting and if I try hard enough I can almost taste how much happiness it holds in it's little rays. But between the light and I is this cliff I'm on. Now, I can step away from the ledge, turn around and walk away from the light to the same darkness that has surrounded me all this time. I can also take a chance and take the fall. The fall won't be painless, nor will it be clear, because I'll land into the pits of the dark night and who knows if I'll ever find that light again?
So since I'm so scared of taking chances...I'll just stand on this cliff and wait for fuck know what.

Wait...I'm scared of heights, why the hell am I on a cliff again? Beats me.


stumbling through the dark with a broken heart
all alone, at it once again
seeping in like a feeling you haven't felt since way back when
in the dead of that night like the summer of sam
i caught word of the commotion you caused via telegram
i got all worked up
we got all worked up

I found a way,
over the fear and through the flames
im diving in, don't follow me
stay right here ill be back for you someday
i found a way,
it'd be best if you just stayed
its not safe don't follow me
i found a way, i found a way