Signed with a heart

Let me just start off by saying I'm pissed. Pissed beyond belief. And also disappointed. Yes, in the fact that this even came up. Disappointed in me as well as in you. Me for being stupid and believing everything that comes out of your mouth and you for being a fucking idiot and probably not even realizing what you did. And knowing me I'm bound to blow up one of these days and blow this shit out of the water, but NO I'm not gonna say shit. You did what you did and as I can see now there is absolutely NO point in talking about it because you will NEVER change. And that's pretty fucking sad because you live in your own little world. Right now I'm about to sound like a total bitch, and it's coming from me just looking at you without thinking about what we had and everything between us. This is strictly me evaluating your actions and so far I have to say that you have fell below a good or even average rating in my book. To me you are a total nothing. You don't give a shit and I'm tired of caring about it. But at the same time I'm not gonna allow for you to treat me this way. I don't deserve it. I don't deserve any of this. I'm so much better off not dealing with this constant shit. You're not perfect, yeah no shit! I know you're not. I'm not an angel either. Really, I'm a huge bitch and at the same time I know what I want and it's not how you're treating me. Not a big deal to you? It is to me and to everyone else you may consider asking. I wish I could get back at you and do what you do to me. Just once I wish I could do at least .0000001% of what you do back to you so you know what it feels like. I wish I could, but I won't allow myself, because I'm not like that. Unlike you I'm aware of my actions and don't act surprised when I'm called out on shit because I rarely ever am. If you honestly think any of these other people are any better and you have a slight interest in them, then go. I would rather you tell me that straight up then give me an unknowing stare and tell me that you don't know why the things happening are happening. Go fuck yourself.

Okay overreacting...but still, this shit boils up and your "recent" fuckup that happened a while ago but that I just found out about got me really pissed off. You don't think, and that's a fucking problem.