ARG.
I'm not crazy. shits just been a bit rough.

So today I'm with the parents, and there is no reason for me to be mad or sad. We were not fighting, but for some reason I just got upset. I even remember thinking "Why the fuck am I upset?" couldn't find an answer. Then they get in a fight. I walk in front, faster to the car and get in. They keep arguing. Dad gets out and says he will go home himself. Tears going down my face. Dad comes back before mom starts car, gets in and I think they were okay. I didn't talk to them for about 10 minutes. My dad turned on music. The Lovemakers, my fave band at the moment, but I didn't even hear them. I was thinking about some other shit.

The rest was okay.

Now, I'm sad again.
1:32 am.
Why must things happen this way?
I'm really lonely. I mean I have friends and family, why am I alone?
I need someone there, to be with me. Not just a friend, but a person of the opposite sex who can help me when I'm feeling crapy, who can be there for me when I need them.

Damnit.