Eat your heart out.

The one piece of evidence I need to know that something is wrong is when I eat nonstop. That is exactly what is happening. For the past two days I have been eating and eating and eating. I walk around trying to find something to stick down my throat because I feel really empty. Currently I am chewing gum, that should make me feel better right?
I swear, I don't know how people starve themselves. The worst feeling in the world is when you feel hungry. I hate that feeling, and when something is wrong the feeling is stronger than ever.
The stupid part is that nothing is really wrong. I guess I'm doing it to waste time. Have been home for 4 hours now, and have not done a single thing except eat! What a waste of time.

On the bus today I saw next to some guy reading a book for one of his classes. At one point his shoulder was heavily touching mine, and he even ended up pressing his whole arm into me. I must say it felt really nice. I felt as if we were family. I swear it felt like I knew him for at least half my life. Then it was my stop and I got up to go. I didn't bother to look back at his sunglasses wearing self...but he did take the time to look at mine. It was interesting.

The guy who gave me a glance my first day, who I sat next to that time was sitting in front of me today. Of all the seats in the class, he just had to sit in front of ME. Great. So his head was covering most of what I wanted to see ahead, but his pants were amazing. As we were leaving he turned his head and gave me another glance. I wanted to compliment him on his pants, but resisted. Then I walked in front of him and disappeared into a crowd of people ahead. Speaking of crowds, guess everyone loves Mondays! It was so crowded in the morning.

Got soup for lunch. It was weird...I have no idea how I decided upon it, but guess it doesn't matter since I later stuffed myself with other unhealthy fatning things. I swear I will never lose weight like this! And don't even begin to tell me that I don't need to. Trust me...I am so over people telling me this. I know what I want and I know what I need, so leave me to it.

Well I have an hour before The Hills start (yes I watch it..lame huh?). And I shall go and try to get some homework done. Yeah...like that will happen.

Oh and next Wednesday is my permit test. Nervous? No. Excited? Somewhat.

Ciao.