You know what that feeling you have when you realize you fucked up on something and it's gonna take a long and hard time for you to get out of the hole you dug for yourself? I haven't had one of those in a very long time. But once again I'm back to that feeling and the worst part is that it's everything but what it always is.
I feel like there's nothing I can do (yes that's stupid, I realize there's ALWAYS something I can do) but at this point nothing is happening. It sucks and I don't have it in me to fix it. I feel like I'm done. Seriously, this just isn't for me. Why can't I find something I actually like and am happy with for once?! Here I am again starting all over from where I was. Waste a whole year. And if I find out I can't drop the class tomorrow I'm fucked for sure, kinda. I can always transfer and I guess that will do it, but I don't want to feel like a fucking reject. That's what city college makes it seem like. Everyone and anyone gets in. I probably won't even be happy there.
Why doesn't anyone have a time machine?
Bastards.
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