stain red

You know when you get that feeling that you're doing something wrong and everything seems to be going down the drain? Shitty feeling, BUT I haven't felt it in a while. That's scary, but also amazing.
I realized (well not like I had no clue before) that I'm a very jealous person, both of the past and the present. That's just how I am and I don't think that's ever gonna change. Take it or leave it. It's hard to deal with my weird thoughts and everything that pops into my head like my new semi-red hair looking like whatsherfaces dumb bitch's myspace profile pic. Who else would think of that but me!? But ahhh my hair looks like hers did. Shoot me now. Whatever, she looked bad with it anyways.

I dont wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest,
Or the girl who never wants to be alone.
I dont wanna be that call at 4 o'clock in the morning,
'Cause I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home.

Ah-ah-ah, the sun is blinding.
Ah-ah, I stayed up again.
Oh-oh-oh, what a finding.
That's not the way I want my story to end...