self medication

I remember being one of those people who would write in their journal everyday. I still have my old Xanga links and all. And sometimes after some of my friends abandoned theirs, I still went back and read over their entries and all the comments. I guess that's the cool part about journaling, everything stays there even when the people change and everything around is different. Because eventually exact feelings and thoughts become lost in time, but there's always what you have written to look back on. I don't have much to say about the matter than I just wrote, so I'll stop there.

On a different note, it's come to my attention that we have several problems to work out. I hate using the term "problems" so I'll replace that with "cracks" or "things"
to work on. And sometimes I feel like this isn't good enough for me and that I want something else, like I'm worth a lot more than what I'm getting back from this. And other times I feel like I'm not good enough. And then I keep wondering and assuming and stating and it never ever ever gets me anywhere. I hope this feeling or whatever it is that's bothering me passes and everything turns out fine because this is the one thing I worry about most than anything else that I've ever worried about and it's such an annoying piece of shit having all these feeling and they just need to GO AWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYY.

Ok, I'm fine :)